When You're Stuck with a Day That's Gray

The kids got me the original "Annie" DVD for my birthday.  It was the first movie I ever saw in a movie theater, I was probably about Riley's age and I remember having to leave because I was talking too much but I love it and I was so excited to take Riley over the holidays to see the new version.  We've been watching the original a ton and the kids love it. 

Well Thursday, I got laid off.  I was half expecting it but also shocked.  After shedding a few tears, I got on the treadmill and realized a few things.  Yes, it sucks getting laid off, even if you hate your job, which I did, it still sucks.  I wanted to tell them to screw off on my own terms, not theirs.  But I got a decent severance, my last day isn't until April 3rd, and they are coordinating interviews for placement with Kashi, which we just spun off.  So I am optimistic, even though it still sucks and feels crappy. 

BUT...as I was running all of the stress of really the last year off it occurred to me that a year ago, I was prepping to bring Riley in for her ATTT and that night, I got to bring Riley to softball practice and that was pretty awesome.  So that awesomeness of where we've come with Riley and her feet, far out weighs the pure crappiness that was Thursday. 

I also started thinking about time with the kids, watching "Annie" and the words to "Tomorrow" popped in my head.  While, I wasn't ready to face the world and really wanted to wallow in my own pity party, I sang the words in my head "Just thinking about tomorrow, clears away the cobwebs and the sorrow 'til there's none/ When I'm stuck in a day that's gray and lonely/I stick up my chin and grin and say Tomorrow, tomorrow, I love ya, tomorrow/ You're always a day away..."

And it's true, tomorrow is a new day.  After a semi-decent night sleep, tomorrow is today, and the sun is shining and I'm feeling much better.  I'm now pissed I got let go but I guess that gets me one step closer to acceptance and action to fix the issue at hand.  But in the meantime, I'm seizing the day, I'm catching up on blogging (been way too long since my last post), I volunteered to help coach Riley's softball team since her coach travels a lot, plan on taking Riley to running club as much as possible, I' going to try to get as much quality time in with the kids before I land a new job, I might take this opportunity to re-evaluate my career (I might be ready for an industry change) and I'm going to get back to crafting and learn my new sewing machine that I got for my birthday.  I have been so miserable for so long that I've forgotten what I love and who I am so I am all about getting that back.  I made a joke with my old boss that 2015 was the year of me, Kellogg's may have tried to knock me down but I'm going to look at this as an opportunity (but all rights reserved to revert back to a pity party once in a while).

Birthdays, Birthdays, and More Birthdays!

Well, I'm quite behind on blogging and life in general.  Work has been tortuous lately and is sucking every last bit of energy out of me.  My job has been up in the air for about a year now but now that the merger has closed between Safeway and Albertson's on top of my company going through a sales organization reorg, doom day is pending (more on that later).  Unfortunately, I met recently with my boss and I didn't get a good feeling that there is a place for me in the new organization so I'm likely to be out of a job in the next few weeks.  Everything happens for a reason so if this is the case, then we shall figure it out but the stress of not knowing has take a toll on my energy (and patience) levels.  BUT...

Through all of this, of course we had to celebrate Riley's birthday!  And I had a birthday in there as well.  But enough about me and more about Riley's very Frozen Party!  We had a hard time getting Riley's invite list low enough that we could actually afford to have her party somewhere (and most places have a 16 kid limit) so we opted for our house with what else? a bouncy house!  The birthday girl had a fantastic time.  She loves her birthday, who can blame her!?!  I think she had 4 or 5 celebrations between her party, tepenyaki, her actual birthday and her celebrations in her class and at EDCC.

Riley has some serious hula hoop skills, I think this may be her ticket to a college scholarship!

And then there was my birthday, Marc tried really hard to make it special but the kids were in RARE form, let me tell you.  LOL!  So no pictures from that glorious day, I did escape the insanity to get a pedicure but overall, it wasn't a picture worthy day.  Bummer since it was on a Saturday!